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Don't need another perfect lie
Don't care if critics ever jump in line
I'm Gonna give all my secrets away

Secrets – One Republic

We can live forever if we got the time, and courage!

Finally start blogging after one week where laziness and oh-my-can’t-express-feeling take control. I’m back, safe and sound. And I also want to update what’s happening in my life to those who care and matter much. But really blogging really makes u feel lazy heh cos so much is happening in your life to be put to a post!

WHEEE just got back from HaNoi, for the second time! My family random much or what, went 2 times. But the first one quite bored heh, mostly stayed at home and used com, pretty much like my usual life. Went out with the girls, but only for a few hours so only eat a bit of junk food and walk around to see the rush life, proud that we can slack like no one’s business. The best thing is meeting Mr Ang there, my math teacher in sec3. Heehee I spotted him first, he looks old and tired, but more serene that when he was in RGS, happy to see him. A bit worried since after I told him my sub combi, he was like “Serious? You sure?”. I’m damn freaking scared lah, no need to say like that, but oh wells, I do what I want so WTV!

BUT THE SECOND TIME IS JUST THE BOMBZZZ. Mommy came with me this time so she brought me out to eat much more hahahahaha. Ate all I can in 2 days, shit lah seriously I dunno how much I eat in 2 days but now remember a bit scary. But yeah, who cares, good food FTW(Y). I wished so much for the cold winds and almost die, soooo freaking cold and my gay hoodie can’t really handle it. Thank God I’m coming back alive. Sorry no photos I don’t know where the hell I put my cam alr and my phone’s ain’t that good.

These days mommy got infected with shopping virus, she bought me so much stuff I can’t believe this is happening. Skirts, dresses, shorts, jeans, 10 tops???? Shoes, even panties heehee, oh and NAVY BLUE HOODIE 

♥. Thank you Mom I love you so much!!! Hope my new life deserve all my new good clothes :P

Stupid piggie alr knew her roomie, poor them, WHY ON EARTH HASN’T RIB INFORMED US WHO WE ARE ROOMING NEXT YEAR!!!! I’m effing frustrated lah, I want to know who are suffering me the retard next year. Really don’t want to move in new rooms yet, PIGGIE you should be appreciative I’m saying this : It will never be the same!

Enough with the negative babe!! Oh who am I kidding I’m coming bk in like less than a week. Sigh sigh ttm, hopefully I can stay alive for the cruel next year, fun fun some can say, but I feel damn pressured, thanks to 3 new subjects, and GP. Hope SAT class pays off.

Off for now, come back when I feel like. Maybe tomorrow, idk, life is fun when there are mysteries rite?

Alice in LalaLand

"Who said I can't wear my
Converse with my dress
Well, baby, that's just me"

Lalaland - Demi Lovato

I won't change anything in my life. I'm staying myself tonight

 

Forgotten Fairytales

"Could it be you fell for me?
And any possible similarity
If it’s all, how would I know?
You never knew me at all but I see you" 

I see you - Mika

In my wildest dreams, you'll be standing at a moon-lit window, smiling like angels and whispering like the wind "So long". Dreams!

When i was young, i dreamt of flying high on a swing and shouting on the tops of my lungs.

Living in the world where no one judge my acts, a perfect little world of mine.

When i was young, life was never pink to me (i hate pink), it was blue, skyblue and pure.

When i was young, far far away ....

I'm now all grown up, a bit too much actually.

I struggled through times to find the real me, stood in front of the wardrobe (secretly dreaming of Narnia) thinking what to put on myself, to stay in my comfort zone or be creative aka weird

I spent half my life acting like a boy, or trying to, just to look tough, and strong, like how people expect me to.

And i'm tired, and confused.

There are times i feel so girly yup, though not often, me is satisfied.

And now, A little dress is not so cruel to me anymore

Sometimes i wear it for fun, or to feel the girly air, whatever it is, i'm happy to wear it, not forced anymore.

Now i still dream of flying high, no doubt, just change from jeans and t-shirt, to a little white dress floating.... like a dream. Of mine

Balls flying high OUCH

“And i find it kind of funny, i find it kind of sad
The dreams in which i'm dying, are the best i've ever had"

Mad World - Adam Lambert

What are you trying to tell me baby? To treasure the hardships 'cos they are actually precious?

Went for Volleyball training yesterday. Woot, literally freaked out ttm man. All the girls in there have trained for at least 2 years and damn pro. K lah, I’m the tallest but that doesn’t really help luh. Every time they hit the ball it went like bang bang, against the floors, walls, chairs whatever damn loud and scary that I found myself running for places to hide. If the balls hit me I think confirmed die alr. So I pretty much practiced by myself since we’re not on the same “level”. And the coach damn slack lah, wth is she doing there? Sitting on a chair and pointing fingers here, there. No wonder this team has all the potentials but fail at all the major competitions. But yeah, not my problem anyway, just gonna prac there for a few days to get all the basics. Hopefully I’ll get into Volleyball next year, I’m so sick of Performance Arts CCA alr. Rumors are that if you’re tall your chances of getting in the team are higher, so yeah, cross my fingers and pray pray. I really like Volleyball :D But the worst thing is today all my muscles hurt like SHIT lah seriously, Gosh I know I haven’t worked out for so long but…. And did I mention one criteria of Volleyball is “Willing to train hard”. Oh dear…

I WANNA BE ABLE TO DO A SPIKE. SERIOUSLY COOL MAN!!!!!!

Anyway, staying with grandparents is fun and super relaxed. My grandparents love me very much they don’t want me to touch any chores at all (either that or they’re scared I will mess up, but I prefer the more lovey option J). But I’m living like an elder now. Wake up at 7, lunch at 11, dinner at 5. Hehe, but nvm, at least give my body a rest before the battles lor.

My cat damn attention-looking, keep invading my room, then lie down and stretch like forever. If I never show any recognition then keep miaoing until I can’t take it anymore I have to either play with it for a while or kick it out (depends on my mood heh). Haha I’m violent lah but sometimes it’s damn cute just jump on my bed and sleep beside me like a pig:D Like owner like pet (Y)

Home is FUN, and I treasure every second before I come back to Hell! GODDAMNIT!

Portrait

“'Cos you''re amazing

Just the way you are"

Just The Way You Are -Bruno Mars

So TRUE!

I'm not a self-centered bitch! But i HEART this photo ♥. And you never know what happens tomorrow. So be pretty and stay pretty.

PS: My cat looks dao though :|

Prosaically Cosmopolitan Life

“You can count on me like 1 2 3
I'll be there
And I know when I need it I can count on you like 4 3 2
And you'll be there
Cause that's what friends are supposed to do, oh yeah”

Count on me-Bruno Mars

Mind me for bombarding you with my oh-so-high-obsession with Bruno Mars these days. But oh, Who cares? My blog!

Don’t be bothered/shocked/surprised to death or jump to conclusion that I’m showy with words or anything when u look at my title. Gosh, that’s just to illustrate how freaking frustrated I am with SAT. Yeshhh, SAT, how nerdy can I be. Okay fine lah, I’m never a nerd lor, my mother signed me up, she’s scared her baby will become rotten meat =.=. Best thing is I’m the only girl in the class, how nice! All the boys are freaking talkative and scarily smart. Seriously, they seem to know all the words the teachers throw at us. I’m still stunned at what the hell that word means and all of them is like “…. Blah blah blah”. And we got back our midterm paper. Like always, I screw up with all stupid mistakes, but some i just stone so yeah. And one of them got 2300, 2-3-0-0????? In the midterm test? But not much surprise lor, smartest kid!

My wish list for 2010 X’mas:

- Doraemon Memorizing bread – study and eat at the same time. 2 thumbs up.

- (a more practical one) Some flash cards

- Some drops of motivation.

Watching or should I say indulging in America’s Next Top Model now. Gosh, the show is just DROP-DEAD gorgeous! I can’t believe how some girls look so normal in real life yet in front of the camera they just … transform, into beautiful creatures that I swear any boy would crave for. Ehem, I think I’m bragging so much but I’m like really rotten now and ANTM is the only thing to keep me entertained :D

Negative thing

_ Too addictive (I keep on watching just to know who’s the winner ‘cos you really can’t tell. You can do all well and click, one mistake, bye bye dear awww K)

_ UNFAIR TTM (They keep kicking my fav’s ass out and I feel like giving up on the cycle)

HOWEVER, one of my fav did make it to the top and become ANTM cycle 4 :D Naima Mora. She’s just special. No need for elaboration

My pretty girl ♥

With Tyra Bank (amazing host i must admit)

Happiest and most happening thing : Going to Ha Noi this Fri. AWESOME TTM man!!!! Can’t wait for the winter wind and hoodie ♥

The way you move ain't fair you know!

DON'T TOUCH ME NOW!

“It's a beautiful night,
We're looking for something dumb to do.
Hey baby,
I think I wanna marry you”

Marry U- Bruno Mars

Can his lyrics get any sweeter than this? Woohoo My boy

I hate to give birth to my 1^st blog entry and it’s bound to be a damn emo one. Gosh, but really can’t help. I got this whole freaking anxious feeling, feel like screaming out on the top of my lungs, but it’s so gonna wake my grandparents up so … blee drop it. Words can’t say anything much but if it comes out of my mouth now it will be covered with sorrow and hate to say this but tears!

Never feel so insecure in my entire life. Not that I’m saying I’m strong or anything. But seriously this whole moving to a new stage of life or what shit you want to call it is just so overwhelming and I mean it. I’m leaving behind almost everything dearest to my heart to go JC, gosh my second home NYGBS, my roomie, my gang, my care- freeness. And to get back what?

A freaking insecure subject combination, seriously I’m so the 1^st and most probably the only one to choose this combi???? Will I make it through J1? Ever? I hate the feeling of disappointing my mom so much but I’m not even sure whether I can do well in J1 to make up for my down-the-slope S3 and S4 results, but really no one to accompany me? And even better than that, having to adapt to a new environment all over again. I’m never THE girl who will go all out that people like, I’m more the corner girl at first. But gosh, I don’t wanna be the weirdo in the class!

And I hate myself for saying this, but I also feel insecurity in my closest friends? Is it me being too goddamn jealous or what? But they seem to be so much closer to others that I sometimes also doubt our friendships? Gosh I hate myself so much much much now. I feel like punching me in the face, and sinking my face in the pillow.

I’d better stop before I sink deeper. Cheer up soon babe! And smile.

Wish life was this beautiful, like that in a bubble world. A PURPLE one.

Beautiful she is!